Currently Listening Synchronicity [Digipak] By The Police Wrapped Around Your Finger see related

Life

I'm not liking this new Xanga.  why mess with the old one?  Anyhoo, I haven't posted in forever and I'm having one of those days so here goes.  I missed a bunch of classes last week and thought I had two tests today.  So I of course stayed up stupidly late last night to study.  I get up this morning to head to class and my car won't start.  Apparently it was about -24 degrees this morning without the wind chill so I guess that explains it.  Luckly I got ahold of my professor and she said I could take my test after my last class this morning.  My roomie gave me a ride to campus in time for class 2.  I thought I had a test there but apparently he decided to postpone it.  Which is very good, but still, BLARG!  So now I'm chillin at the NC waiting for Bethany to get out of class and take me to my house and attempt to jump my car.  I've decided I'm cursed when it comes to white ford vehicles.  Whether its my crappy explorer dead in my driveway or the vehicle of someone i'm interested in, it just never seems to work out well for me.

I'm also still waiting on my new boots which I ordered 3 weeks ago!  Apparently they shipped them to the wrong store and can't figure out how to get them back.  Working at Lowes has made me somewhat of a picky, short-tempered customer with other retailers so I'm getting extremely peeved.  Lowes can get a refrigerator to the store in about 10 days but RCC can't get a pair of boots to me in under 21.

In other positive(ish) news, I have switched my career goals again.  I have decided that I want to take over my parent's company.  This should be interesting as my sister seems to think that it will be handed to her. Oh well, that too shall pass.  I'm 'think' I'm going to stay with the same majors though.  My dad is a structural engineer (read Civil Engineer for you non-engineers) so I may eventually change majors as ag engineering doesn't have a ton of structures stuff and mechanical has absolutely none. We'll have to wait and see though.

I am thinking about re-painting the inside of my house.  The green I picked when I first moved in really isn't doing anything for me.  I want my house to feel like a cozy sweatshirt and it doesn't right now.  I think I have picked a cream color for the base with a warm country yellow-brownish mustardy color and a burnt sepia for bands up near the crown moulding.  This would be in the living/kitchen and the hallway.  I still need to paint the laundry area when I get a spare 4 hours.  I'm thinking of maybe a barn red but that seems kind of adventurous for me.  We'll have to see.  I also am going to buy new kitchen flooring in the next several weeks (I just need to pick a color.  I have medium honey oak cabinets which don't really go the best with any of the wood-look laminates.  I might give in and do a tile-look click.) So hopefully that could get installed over spring break if i'm feeling adventerous.

I went to the orthopedic surgeon on monday and apparently my collar bone still hasn't managed to heal, 8 months later.  I now get to use a bone stimulator for 3 months and go back in May to see if its healed.  If not, I may be getting surgery for my birthday.  hopefully not though.

In other news, my friend Lisa had her baby. Early of course, which is good for her but bad for me.  I've been working on a blanket for her and its only about 1/2 done so I'm going to have to kick it into gear or the kid is going to be like 12 before he gets it.  I'm going to do my best to get it done before spring break so I can give it to her when I get down to Lincoln.

Currently Listening Highway to Hell By AC/DC see related

So I am now officially in South Dakota.  Its really interesting in a comforting way.  Two of my roommates took me to the Admin building today to pay my bill and we passed the campanile.  As we were driving by, the promptly pointed to it and announced, "The penis of the prarie, the dick of the dakotas, the campanile."  I thought it was absolutely hilarious.  After that I went and bought my books for the semester.  $454.87 worth of books for the semester; including a $41 engineering tools pack.  Should be interesting.  I am actually looking forward to my classes this year.  Even Spanish.

Also, on an even happier note, congrats to all my ADPi ladies and their new sisters!  I know you all will have a great year together.

Currently Listening Extreme Behavior By Hinder Lips Of An Angel see related

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words (and this post is way less than that)

I don't know if i'm up to an inspiring quote today, but we'll try. I found the last picture I have of him today. Lindsey got rid of the others for me quite a while back but for some reason I just can't seem to get rid of this one. Its to the point that I don't tell people about it because I know they will try to get me to destroy it. I really don't know why I keep it. Its not even a good picture. For some reason I have this horendous fear that if I get rid of the picture that noone will believe that it really happened and that I'd be crazy. There are a lot of days recently that I wonder if I deserve to get better and today is one of those days. It seems that since I started telling people what happened, at least half of the people have told me that, in essence, I got what I deserved. With comments ranging from telling me that I had no business at that party to the ones telling me that I didn’t do enough to stop him they all make it that much harder to get better. The worst is when they come from family. You can read all the pamphlets you want, but when your mom tells you that you shouldn’t have been at that party and maybe you should have made better decisions its a huge setback. I don’t know how to explain how hard that is to everyone. I think that the best was when one of my really good friends told me that I could talk to her because she wouldn’t judge me. I know she meant well, but damn. People need to realize that for every negative comment they make, I’ve been thinking that exact thing for the past five months. I really love the people who tell me I just need to try a bit harder and i’ll be better. By the way, recovering isn’t like the ACT’s. Its not something you can study for, its just something that you have to take one step at a time. You can try as hard as you can and its not necessaryily going to fix itself right away. So, time is on my side and all that jazz, thanks for letting me rant.